i am in a super extremely bad mood.

Cos of family, colleague etc.

I just dont understand why!!!

after a tiring work day, went home immediately.
the moments i step into my home. My tears was like rolling down~~
my home was in a big mess. worse my room was messy like hell.
Thank to my mummy, got nothing better to do.
Take out everything in store-room then throw into my bed-room. Then some box, toiilet paper or whatever shit, rubbish, just happily throw aside in the living room. wth?

I really feel like crying. My home, my bed room was like in a rubbish room.

My colleague, well. I don't really wanted to say much but i realize not only colleague.

people around me tend to eat me up. I wanted to be nice. but yet i realize being nice always the loser person.

I don't expect much.

Can people around me auto a-bit. I am not rich people nor i wanted to be a petty person.

but when i wanted b nice to help or share around. You, people enjoy to pretend is what i should do, is i owe u kind. I am nice, u pretend that is what i should do. You alway the kind that is not good or kind but in other people eyes, you were like angel. i am devil.

wth. really no mood. don't know what i typing. Life is so reality & cruel.